1st day of school

nothing much happen. was slacking and slackin in school. well.. my lesson starts almost at 12 everyday except thurs n fri. But ends late. 6pm ! -_-

Was rushing like hell for work after sch 'ends' at 4pm. Actually got ETP but i didn't go cuz of work. Moreover its just first day of school. Didn't even have time for dinner !!

My working schedule is being affected. I can't work mon - thurs. Told the manager when i went to work just now. But she requested me to report to work at 7pm next mon & wed. She said it doesn't matter that i can't reach at 6. 7 is also fine. OMG! CAN'T SHE LET ME OFF? I JUST WANT TO REST AND STUDY!!!! I'm so sick n tired of workin at CJ!!

I hate my life. Why do i have to work n study!!!! its damn stressful! Its so pointless that i travel so far and work at 7pm and go home at 10 or 1030pm!! I'm just envy of those who can just concentrate on their studies while their parents suppport them. I am just so jealous of them!!!!! I thought of asking my mum to just give me $20 weekly allowance so that i need not work. But, come to think of it, i dont think i can survive.. even if i eat bread everyday, I need to save abt 2 weeks allowance to pay my hp bill. This means i can't go out often as i'll be very broke. Argh.!

JUst feel so troubled over everything thats happening in my life!! all my troubles that i had in my mind is making me going bonkers. The fact that my dad has no CPF for me to go study at Poly makes me feel the most worried and depressed. Told my mum about my results the other day. I told them that i maybe can make it to the poly n asked if dad has got the CPF for me to use. I thought dad would have quite a savin of CPF, and thought that i could use that for POly . But, he told me he got no CPF. I don't know what he means. Maybe he already got plans for his CPF. For the housing loan maybe. But this means i can't use his CPF for poly! Then where the hell can i get money to study? Dad said use mum's CPF. But mum's CPF is already so pathetic. Even if i use, i still need to pay cash when in the mid of the 3 yr course or her CPF maybe can only last me for 2 yrs. i really don't know. !! Moreoever, i think i will need money to buy books, laptop n sch related stuff. Who's gonna give me the money?

I'm just so troubled over money issues right now. I need money yet i can't work. Even if i can, there's something in my mind that stress me out of my job. Something that purposely make me can't balance off my job n studies! i need a peace of mind or someone to tell me what to do !!! Someone before i can't take all of it anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!