Bottled Up

I just need someone to hear my troubles, comfort me of all my worries and share my happiness. Friends? out of question. Boyfriend? losing one soon. I don't know.. i'm just so stress up with my life.... work, financial, project, everything!!!

I was so damn fed up when i went work today..the manager's attitude towards me was so damn bad. Ordering me away as if i'm her pet. Come'on, I'm a human too!!!! I need the kind of respect a human needs. From customer service perspective, i'm her internal customer okie, so i do need courtesy and respect too!! Don't just put ur anger on me !!! Everyday when i go work, i'm always walking in with a =) but ended up with a =( when i finish work. And just when i needed u most after work, u can't talk to me. Then who the hell am i suppose to talk to ? write everything down in paper n pen so that i will feel better??????

From time to time, i've been questioning myself for thousands millions times, are u really the one for me? My feelings for you are still there, but there are so many causes to make me feel that maybe u r not the one. I don't wanna lose u, but i dunwan to be quarelling with u almost everytime we meet. Or, maybe all along it was only my fault for getting angry too easily. Maybe ya life would be much better without me. I don't know what to do.. or what to think.. i just wanna escape from reality.

Project... hai. Don't wanna talk abt it. All i hope is that we will finish on time.

Everything in my life now is a mess. MESS!!!!!! I'm GOinG to BE CRAZY SOON!!!