Its 2009 now.

I'm posting again.....

Not sure it its a gd or bad start.... tomorrow is the CNY eve... it's a little different this time round... everything changed.... the places i visit.. i wonder if anyone will ask me abt him.. and, i'm actually thinking of how to say it out...

will things be easier if you r beside me? to go through with me? i don't think so... think it'll just be akward as well.... I just wanna hide my face... didn't wanna go to any CNY Visit at all... just wanna avoid... and stay home to rest or whatever.

Whenever i think abt the change, think abt the people i have to face... I'm totally sian.

I really dislike the feeling i had while at your house . I thought it'll be fine but i don't think so.. i was at the verge of crying when she ignored me...but i know i can't cuz its stupid and its unnecessary , but i really felt like crying. maybe i am childish.. maybe i'm just sensitive.. but the kind of treatment i got... i really feel very unwelcome. I never feel this b4... especially from someone i know... its just 'new' to me..

I am just hoping i'm able to go through this CNY....